the new fixture 

My light will not shine

It started out about two to three weeks ago. It was a normal day with normal things to be done around the house. I reached over with all confidence to switch on the light on the bed side of my room. It's glory did not grace me. I did the flick it on flick it off thing for a bit but still nothing. To get to the light bulb I had to remove a cover, once done I did what any smart human would do, I reached up and tightened what I thought must be loose. Going back to the switch I again turned it to the on position and for a moment the light proved that it knew it's job intimately, but that was it, a moment. It then gave up and would not be prodded nor coaxed back again to it's shimering glory.

I presumed to believe the fixture had given way to some malfunction and decided to check it closely. I check the wires, of what I could see all was well. So my head decided the fixture must be changed. my next time out in the world of goods I purchased a new/used fixture and bringing it home promptly set to replaceing it. Wires reconected and new fixture in place I again placed the light bulb in it's socket to no avail. Asking my Father what could be the problem he suggested a new light bulb but failed to convince me for how the light had come and gone and come and gone again I could not believe that the bulb would do this. on my return home I checked on the switch itself for it's functioning was not totaly to my liking. I gain made a purchase in hopes of creating a more convinceing surounding for my light to work in.

NOTHING! not a flicker, not even a wink. Frustrated, I gave up and planned to get my father to come with his power tester for I had reason to figure that the wires were messed up. I lived in the darkness for yet another week feeling frustrations towards this old house and it's failing wires. "how could it just give up like that all of a sudden?" No longer wishing to sit and wait for the rescue of my dark world I chanced on the thought of taking my father up on his offer, suggesting I try a new bulb.

Oh, did I not say? through out this whole time I would test the workings of my new system with the same bulb, but not once would it be conviced that this was it's job any longer.

A new bulb and there was LIGTH!

Green day 

The old ladys

I had long ago in the past written to you about the salon ladys. I told of the ones that were nice, strange, and the grouch. Edna is her name and since I last wrote that e-mail alot has changed. You see all these clients have been Teresas (my boss) clients for many years. Well Teresa was no longer in the mood to put up with our dear Edna and she one day told her. She told Edna that if she was not happy, which it aways seemed she was not, that she should concider not comeing any more. Well the next week Edna called to confirm that her appointment was still at the same time. It was but it was with me because Teresa was on holidays. That was the end of last month. Well since then Edna has become my weekly client and her aditude has change tremendously. Oh she still swears and still seems harsh around the edges. But I am learning to enjoy her alot. She always complains of something and this only causes me to feel a strange sence of laughter come over me. I am never rude just hopeing to help her see that life ain't so bad. She has started to thank me for my help and my time. I asked her how she was doing as I wraped her hair in perm rods. Her response shocked me, "oh...........I'm good, How are you?" And it would almost seem she had noticed that I was tierd. The day seemed to continue on in this manner. Don't get me wrong there were times it seemed she were truelly upset but never really at me. Everyone else seems to find she gets angry at them but truelly I believe she is an unhappy lady and this has always made me sad. I really hope I can be a little bit of light in her week and I pray she will start to see the joy in the little things.

mountain me 

this day

I realise I am not as adiment a blogger as I used to be and that is for good reason. I have since gotten taken up by the summer and all the joys it brings. There have been visits from friends and family and visits to the same. There have been bike rides through the city and camping trips to the mountains. I have spent time growing (spiritualy not physicaly though I would like to say that I have found muscles I never knew I had [this I believe is mostly due to walking to work]) and the growth has been very good. Growing pains have taken over at times but they are short and worth it. On top of all of this I have been working on a project at home in the rest of my free time (which feels so little).

I have just returned from one of said bike rides which was a nessicary thing. I am always amazed at how much a depresed spirit can cause one to not move around physicaly and yet when one does then all of a sudden the spiritual slump is seen by what it really is, just a bunch of garbage that one is making out to be a bigger matter than it really is. If you have not guessed by now that is exactly where I was but an hour ago. There are things in my life that I want to have go one way but are completly out of my control and this was dragging me down. the worriying the qeustioning. But now I remember that it is not for me to worry of but to instead give over to God and leave it with Him. I love this, I love knowing that it is not up to me and therefore there is no need for me to stress over it. I can be a total slacker, totaly sit back in this case and say "nope, none of my busyness only God can do that"

I believe once witner comes you will be hearing alot more from me. When one is couped up in a small appartment with nothing to do they turn to thinking and that turns them to writting about it.

Shortening days

The slow decline of sunlight is a slow draw to darkness that I do not enjoy. I do not so much like the fact that it feels as though I have only had two weeks of summer. The fact that it feels as though I have not yet warmed up, That my bones seem to creak and my joints ache at the thought of the cold. I am young and yet my body is starting to age. The dry and cracked hands that seem to have the grand canyon running through each crease of skin. And Yet.........

Yes there is a yet to all of this. I do look forward to the snuggling in the big blankets. Curling up to the fire (which I do not have but for my gas stove) . Playing in the snow (which I rarely have in this city of chinooking). The smell, there is something to the smell of winter that you can not find in any other season. Coming in from the cold with glasses fogged up to high heaven to remove them and see just as poorly. The fact that October will celebrate my first year of working at this shop. The desire that this will bring to move on to a new city or old.

This winter will be good, I have decided to enjoy it. I will enjoy another year of single living, I will enjoy my apartment for another space of time. My God has been so good that I fear none of this for He will be with me still. I rejoice in what He has in store for me.