Friday, October 15, 2004

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Home defines us?

I was going to write a comment in my brother and sister-in-laws blog but it got to large so instead I will blog on it myself. I was a little sadend by the first blog on this subject but also do understand. I also dislike the headaches the weather and alltitude give me and the knee pains caused by the same. Yeah it is large and not the best city to get around in. But I love my life here. Okey so my love for the city is maybe more based on the friends I now have here. The job where I am known and know my clients and everyone elses. It is one of the first times I feel like I belong even when I don't feel that way. How do I say,.......I know this is where I am to be at this time and so I enjoy it. I do not see myself here forever, honestly there are many things that make me wish I were back in Manitoba but now is not the time for me to be there. Somehow though I took it personaly when the city I live in was not liked. I know they love me and they do not asociate me with this city but I do. I am a part of this city at this time and when it is put down I take it that I am too. That somehow my choice of a place to live is looked down on and then I also am looked down on.

In this post I would like to make my own appoligy. I lived in Winnipeg for more than a year and have since said how much I disliked that city but truelly this is not the case. Instead I was not happy in some of the situations I had lived while there and project that pain on the whole of the city. It was the place for me during a portion of that time but when I was to move on I did not and that was when it was no longer any good.

As I write this I am drawn to think on how ones dwelling place is so much a part of them. I do not only mean in house but in city, state, and country. The whole Bible is full of the Isrealites living in Isreal and when they did not they only wanted to go back. Always to the home land. The place they were ment to live. A majore portion of who they were was where they were.

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Winter on it's way?

Gack.....THis things ugly. I just got my visa card in the mail and wow do I hate it already. I know what kinds of powers this thing hold and I don't like it. Working in a place of business like I have never done before I finaly understand how easy it is to use one of these things. Swipe the card punch in the price and sign the paper (which I might add no one ver seems to really check anyhow). The thing that amazes me is how I remember having the same feelings about the debit card. Haveing it in card form it could run away with you. Will I use it? Will I get comfortable with it? Of course. I have no such feelings for the debit card now for I know that mostly I am responsible. The only thing about this card I don't like is the fact that if you are at all late on the payments they can charge you for it. The debit is just straight from your account.

Anyhow My day has gone well, tomorrow looks crazy busy and so does saturday. This is all good though cause the more work I get the better. The rain has been falling all day here and it has gotten quit chilly out. This weekend is supposed to snow and be at around -1 ahhh winter soon begins.

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

If you think it you may as well say it

It's as if they know. I should hope it is not written all over my face or that my body language should be screeming it out. I do not run around asking for it but somehow it seems they know I need it. This week had been all right but I have been feeling down just a bit. Nothing that I felt a need to complain about just a little down.

I did not look to forward to this day for stress of a client that I knew I had booked. She asked me to do a cap hilite instead of foils. I have rarly done these and do not care for them that much. It is where you put a plastic cap over ones hair and prosced to poke holes in it with a crochet hook pulling out bits of hair. (yes I like to crochet but do not like the unknown of this version of hiliting, I am always afraid I shall poke the client.) I was having a particualarly hard time with this one and was about to go crazy. I asked my boss for some help and she was more than willing. She was not at all upset that I would seem to be unable to do my job and my client was much more understanding than I had feard.

Well later on (now this is where I am talking "it's as if they know") my boss somehow got on a tangent of telling her client and my client how wonderfull I am. NO, I do not wish that eveyone should talk about me so and I do not plan to blow my own horn. But somehow it seems that people knew today that I needed some building up. I do not feel bad about myself, I think I have a very healthy self confidence but sometimes it is nice to hear it from others out side of your regular circle of family. It is always nice to know that your boss is happy she hired you even when the first sight of you scared her and she only decided to give you a chance because you were there and really she was hopeing she could scare you away by making the job seem so over whelming.

So in the end I guess I will just say. Do not fear saying something nice to those around you. You never know what it could do for them or how they've been feeling.

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

who knows

Life continues on in the direction of good. There are set backs but these are expected. Most often there are such things in progress. Tomorrow I am about to step out and join a crowd I had hoped to never become a part of. A group of people that I had nothing against but did not wish to join. Yet some how it is unavoidable. You are now reading the blog of a soon to be credit card holder. Yes I managed to last alomst twenty-five years. Fine not all of those years count for from the ages of one to about seventeen I would not have really been able to anyhow. I reaslied that truelly you can do nothing in the larger sceem of life (buy a house {not that I plan to any time soon}) without a credit rating and there is no credit rating without building one. I always thought that they should take the lack of credit card as a good rating because you have not gone and gotten one and spent it all and made a bad credit for yourself. Okey, maybe I ask to much.

I have started to burn candles at night. I love the peacefull light they give off and the fact aht they put me to sleep. Yes I put them out before I crawl into bed. I going to go now and read to the light of my candles. Good night to you all.