The new days

One of the greatest moments in my life is the time when finely my niece will adore me. For all three the history has gone as follows. Niece is born, niece gets slowly older and avoids me at all costs. No hugs nor kisses. Till suddenly they come around to find that truly I am a great aunt worth all the affection one can give. The youngest of the clan has come to this final realization. I arrived at my brothers home to have the oldest run to me with big hugs in her arms. Next the second in line comes like wise. And finely the youngest runs to me with squeals and arms wide. Acceptance. How is it even the youngest human on earth can make one feel excepted or not. This final addition has brought a blessed glow to my heart. Her smiles and laughter are sweet and fairly freely given. I also have learnt with these young humans the best way to treat them is to give them their space and they will often come to you with their love and needs.

I am amazed at how this learning is coming through in so many parts of my life. I am finely in a place of true peace. I have at last come to the time in my life where desperation has left me. A miracle of God for certain. For over ten years I have clung to a desperate need, hoping to find it fulfilled in a man. It is fulfilled indeed, in my Lord and savior. I have hesitated to write this the past month for I was afraid it would not last but it has been over a month now for sure and still I am clinging to my Lord. The peace and grace I have known overwhelm me. My heart is full and this is beautiful.